Awal April tiba2 aku sakit dua belah punggung. Sakit yg x dpt d bendung hya pain killer, aku bole tidur. Tanpanya...sakitnya amat dahsyat, fikiran tenang jd kusut. Tiga minggu aku on off hospital, xray 2x, tak retak tak patah apa yg sebabkan dia sakit? Tiap 4jam mkn pain killer klu x tak bole kerja. Aku masih meraba, apa kena dgn aku. Smua org kt aku sakit urat terlalu paksa exercise. Nk jd cerita, minggu tu abg free so we go sat to sun. Biasanya sat da cukup. Lps tu masak x smpt nk relax g kenduri kawin anak ana said khan munirah. Then g ziarah obek osman bt karang. Then anto man, jln2 cari bundle utk ipta Amir. Ms tu da x ikut, nk naik kereta pun da x larat, sakit. Mlm tu x bole tido terlalu dahsyat...sakit ounggung tu mcm d korek2 rasa dlm tulang. Esoknya g clinic hilmi dia kata radang sbb aku bole jln sonbg ubat radang n pain killer. Mlm sakit sgt nk minta tgk urine went to same clinic dr lain they need to send it to lab! So back dated?
Selasa pg g clinic kesihatan, amik urine infections amik mc. Rabu kerja mkn pain killer. Sabtu pg sakit n bwk demam. Ahad abg balik, d hospital selayang, suntik tahan sakit n xray masih infections. Doc cam takut nk go further. Balik jumpe anna baghdadi dgn bby, dia da x kerja lg, sakit ganti org now jg bby. Ya Allah, murahkan luaskan banyakkan rezeki suami isteri itu.
Lps dua minggu aku fikir smpi bila aku nk mkn pain killer? Go n saw razipah, do bone scan, she thought I got prolapse disk, nauzubillah!
28.4.15, results says mastac...bone cancer, true the cells travel from kelenjar lengan kiri into my bones. Traced 2 at left rib 8,9. Right 7, punggung dua2 berlubang, lutut kanan, kaki kanan. After that i felt hard to breathe sakit. So razipah dgn kepakarannya bg patch, said with that you can kive normally. Then masaalah urat saraf menekan kanser yg bengkak kaw punggung. Zabedah kt lps kimo radiotherapy pd punggung punggung tp sekali n satu part saja, ok.11/5 admitted due to too painful until nk pengsan, cannot moved. Bermula lah kesah bed ridden, berak kencing atas katil, masok lg sbb hospice kt tekanan tak stable, masok air je rehydration. 2,30am blk. Tmn da biasa dgn sirens ambulance rumah kami...hehe..smua org kerumun, jiran depan kiri kanan.
Stop kimo 4th, warded 22 july, too weak zabedah tau tumor marker increased she never tell but she knows cells increased she can guess she just said abg long anta ummi g wad la ye. Hah...x pe la bole la, esok sape nk anto...tgn mmg menggiggil. Alhamdulillah dgn izin Allah aku bole bangun berdiri, berjln, mandi, tenggung kat jamban dsb. Alhamdulillah syukur, bila Allah berkehendak. Sentiasalah positive, bila2 Allah berkehendak, aku hya hambaNya anak kpd hamba2Nya cucu kpd hamba2Nya kena akur dan redha. Baru lah Allah tau betul ke ber iman? Betul ke hamba yg redha? Siapa yg paling baik amalannya. Now Allah give you third chance, second on November 2013, 2014 you feels very healthy you decrease your level of service towards Allah. Thankfully you were doing right hand amalah, kuliah2 from one Masjid to another. Alhamdulillah all your work was good deed, infects all addeen, Subhanallah.
The very last unable to finish isya..solat. Then Allah make you on time, very punctual. This is called Rahmah. Not everyone has the chance.
Ustaz Ishak baru call, we apply for bantuan Baitulmal yg ustaz cadangkan kewangan, perubatan dan am pendidikan tinggi untuk Amir. Bulanan dlm 350 da submit insya Allah bole dpt dlm masa sebulan. Perubatan minta kerusi roda as recommended by doctor. Farmasi akan call, the supplier akan takes 2 to 4 months tu biasa, patients with suppliers yg makan ms plg lama kata ustaz, ada rezeki sy ada la insya Allah.
Now, I want to live healthily free from CA as all of us dream. I want to kill the cells as much as I can even though I'm not really sure if I can but eat healthy, more mineral water, more fruits, more veggies, istiqomah dlm amal, zikir and Quran. Insya Allah. I want to be free from tumor, please Allah make us free. Give us the clues to find the right treatments and blessings.
Allah is the original doctor the Almighty, my everything, Thank you ya Rabb, SubhAnallah walhamdulillah walailahaillallah wAllahuakbar
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